Where I have been…

I know I haven’t posted in a while. I have been trying to come to terms with quitting my training two weeks before my half marathon. Yes, I quit, for several reasons. The main reason is it got cold, really cold, and I do not have the right clothes to run in 40 below weather. I know I could have run on the treadmill, but really, who wants to run their very first half on a treadmill? Not me!

I have been dealing with feeling like a failure in this area. I so wanted to do this but I’m not willing to do something so awesome in doors.

Burn out. I hit the burn out wall hard. I feel like I had been going so strong for so long that I lost all desire to continue.  With my all or nothing personality this led to a hard crash. So with burning out on training, and my bad eating habits after stopping the Candida diet, I feel like I’ve been in fat land.

Fat land is where you live when you do nothing but eat, sleep, and basically not move. That has been where I have been for the past few weeks. I wanted to end the year strong but I’ve gone to the completely other field. I plan to get back into some exercise but I think I’m going to start with light running and walking and not worry about doing anything else. I just need to get back to moving, even if it’s just a little.

Outside of that, life have been pretty much the same. We are in our easy month of school, enjoying taking it easy in the holiday season, baking fun treats, decorating for Christmas, watching more tv than normal, and just hanging out. It’s been a nice break for all of us.

Well, I guess I don’t have a lot else to update on. Life at the Mehrkens home is pretty dull. 😉


Running Recap (Nov 10th-Nov 16th)

This week wasn’t very good. At the beginning of the week one of the kids started to not feel well and it is slowing making it’s rounds though the household. I have been feeling run down all week. I’m hoping next week goes a little better…

Not much to report on this week. My long run was slow goings. I really didn’t want to run but after two unscheduled lazy days I made myself got out the door. I had to walk every mile or so to catch my breath. My stomach would randomly cramp up and I almost threw up a few times. BUT I got my run in. I felt pretty good after the run but I think it was mostly just from getting some fresh air, not the actual exercise. haha Here’s to hoping next week is better.

Do you run through colds/flus, or do you take the time off to recover?

Sunday: Rest

Monday: Abs, arms, and 30 min walk

Tuesday: nothing

Wednesday: Abs, legs, and 4 mile run

Thursday: nothing

Friday: nothing again

Saturday: 9 mile run

Total miles: 13 miles

Running Recap (Nov 4th – 9th)

So far, this week has been good. My moods have been great and I’ve felt good during my runs. Yesterday I couldn’t exercise because the day was crazy so I did a double round today. I think I’m going to be a bit sore tomorrow. haha Not a bad thing though.

I’m scheduled to run 12 miles on Saturday but I’m really doubting I’ll be able to pull it off. I’m really hoping to do the full 12 but I’m learning to not freak out if I can’t make a full run. I’ll do the best I can and push myself hard and see what happens. I always get very nervous when I run a new distance. It almost always goes great yet I find myself sick to my stomach until I start running.

I hope to run outside this Saturday but if my stomach doesn’t calm down I’ll be running on the treadmill. The treadmill is not the greatest for long runs, (super long and boring,) but I may not have a choice. My 4 mile run today needed two pit stops. Thank God I was on the treadmill today. lol It’s way to cold to poo in the woods right now. plus I run the chance of hunters seeing me. Oh that would be hilarious

….EEKKKK! I did it! 12 miles baby! I hurt like a @(&$#^(@&$*%(#&%)! but who cares. It was a cold long 3 hours. I still can’t wrap my brain around the fact that I just ran for 3 hours. That’s crazy! I ran the first 9 miles outside in the snow. It snowed the whole time and I had to stop several times to clear off my glasses so I could see where I was going. I also had to walk and stretch my hip whenever it felt like it was getting tight, and that seemed to do the trick. After my last long run I wasn’t sure how my hip was going to do and was afraid my run would get cut short again because of the pain.

By the time I was about 3 miles from the house I was soaked. My socks and shoes were soaked and my top layer of clothes were matted with snow. At that point I decided to finish my run at home. Once home I took a quick bathroom brake and changed clothes and jumped crawled onto the treadmill. With only 3 miles to go I was ready to quit. I was sore all over and being home made it so hard to finish. By the end of the run I was moaning things like, “my legs don’t hurt, I feel great,” and “this is awesome, I love feeling so strong.” haha Crap talk to keep me going, but it worked.

Total time was 3 hours and 2 mins. Pretty good time sense the last 3 miles were really slowed down due to the treadmill. (Running outside is much faster.) My goal is to run the half in under 3 hours and I think I can pull it off.

For now I will enjoy the fact that I ran 12 miles for the first time ever and enjoy the tapering for the next 3 weeks.

What kind of things to do tell yourself to get through those last few miles?

Here is how the week has gone.

Monday: 30 min walk, abs, and arms

Tuesday: 5 mile run, abs, legs, and stretching

Wednesday: none

Thursday: 4 mile run, double abs, arms, and legs

Friday: 30 min walk, abs, arms, and stretching

Saturday: 12 miles and stretching

Sunday: Rest

Running Recap (Oct 28th – Nov 2nd) and My First Long Run I Couldn’t Finish

After last weeks 8 miler from hell I was hoping things had gotten better. No such luck. My 11 mile long run today ended in a split run of 8 miles and 1 mile at home.

It seems my body can handle 5 miles well, but not much after that. It’s frustrating really. Sense I bonked a few weeks ago my hip hasn’t been the same and longer runs are becoming really painful. Today I made it 8 miles and then I had to have Dean pick me up. I stretched a bit and was feeling better so I decided to try to finish the 3 miles. I made it 1. 😦 I have rain through shin splints, and an MCL aggravation, possible sprain, and now this. This is a whole new pain. It literally feels like my hip will shatter at any moment. My recovery time is the same, one to two days rest, but my hip pain flairs up around that 5 mile mark regardless of how good my legs feel before a run. With only a month to go for my half, 5 miles is the average run. I really want to meet my goal but I’m coming to terms with the possibility of it not happening. Some things you just can’t run though and I don’t want to break my hip and chance not being able to run in the future. I know I’ll one day ran a half,  a full marathon, and with any luck a 50 mile ultra marathon, but obviously not on MY time schedule. lol

I’m going to not push back my half and just stick to my training schedule and see how it plays out. I might have to push it back but I’m going to take it one week at a time. Still hoping to finish my half before the year is over.

How do you mentally handle your training when it doesn’t go as planned?

Monday: none

Tuesday: 6 miles and abs

Wednesday: 35 min walk

Thursday: 4 miles

Friday: 30 min walk, arms, and abs

Saturday: 9 miles

Total Miles run: 19 miles

Running Recap (Oct. 21st-26th)

I was only able to run twice this week do to needing a couple extra days to recover from my 10 miler on Sunday. So now my half is pushed back again. I’m trying to be ok with this. I thank God I didn’t put money into a race that I wouldn’t have been ready for. I’m determined to run a half before the snow in on the ground. I want to run my first half outside and the weather is getting colder. I like running in cold weather but I’ve never ran in the really cold air before. I will run my half before the year is out. I WILL!

I’ve still be pretty lazy with my cross training. I am giving myself the rest of this month to not sweat it and exercise if I feel like it but not care I if I don’t. However, November and December I’m kicking it into high gear. I want to finish the year strong. My goal was to be down to 135lbs my the new year but I’m not going to make that. I knew it was a big goal so I’m ok with not making it. I would like to be down to 150lb though. Still a big goal but if I work hard and stick to this horrid no sugar/carbs diet I think I can pull it off.

Sense starting this diet I haven’t binged/purged at all. In fact, the last time I did was September 25th. I did binge a few times right before the start of the diet but I kept it down. I still struggle with the mental side of disordered eating but I guess not acting on them is a pretty big step in getting better. I feel like I’m swinging the other way and finding it easier to restrict and I find myself talking to myself at meals. “It’s ok to eat this, it’s really not that much,” and so on. It’s funny how I can suffer from both extremes at the same time. One minute I’m having trouble eating a salad and the next I want to eat everything in sight. Maybe one day I’ll be able to look at food and not think anything. That will be a wonderful day.

Monday: Abs and legs

Tuesday: Abs

Wednesday: nothing

Thursday: Abs, legs, and 4 miles

Friday: nothing

Saturday: 8 miles

Total miles: 12 miles

Running Recap (Oct 13th-20th) and My First Double Digit Run

This has been a pretty good week. I didn’t do as much strength as I’d have liked but I’ve been  lazy and I’m ok with that.  🙂 I ran my first ever double digit run today! 10 miles! It was a great run in the snow.

I was a bit nervous running so far from home on my long run because my body is still adjusting to my new diet, but I did good. No accidents, aka, I didn’t crap my pants miles from home. lol. The first five miles were great, I felt strong and light. At the five mile mark I turned and headed for home and my legs started to hurt. I decided to eat my Larabar at that point and hoped my legs would stop hurting, and that the bar wouldn’t make my guts start moving. For the next two miles all was good. Guts were fine and I could tune out the leg pain. By mile seven I knew I wasn’t going to poo myself but the pain in my legs was getting worse. By mile 8 my legs throbbed with pain and it took everything I had to not walk the rest of the way home.

My montra was, “one foot in front of the other, don’t think about anything else, you can’t stop this close to home.” It’s an amazing feeling pushing thought when you think you have nothing left. My first 10 miles, a shower, and some time off my feet, and all I can complain about now is a sore ankle. Not bad!

Total miles for the week:

Monday: None

Tuesday: 5 miles and leg exercises

Wednesday: none

Thursday: 3 miles and arms and abs

Friday: none

Saturday: none

Sunday: 10 miles

Total miles: 18 miles!

How was your week of running?

Running Recap (Oct 1st-12th) And My First Bonk

Sorry I’ve been gone the past couple weeks. I just haven’t been in a writing mood. Sometimes it feels like it takes everything I have to just catch my breath. Life hasn’t been all that busy but I’ve been tired and feeling run down. We have been fighting a cold so I’m sure that’s part of it.

Running has been going pretty good. This month, so far, I have stuck to my running schedule which has made me happy. Slowing down to three days a week has really helped my knee. It seems running between four and five miles is what triggers my knee pain. However, it’s not taking as long for it to feel better. Yea! I’ve ran a five and six miler this month and my knee handled it pretty well. Instead of the pain lasting a few days to a week it’s down to less than 24 hours.  I have my second ever 8 miler tomorrow so we’ll see how that goes.

…8 miles done. Wow was it long…and painful, haha. The first 5 miles were really nice and pretty easy, but the last 3 were like a death march. I was running on my treadmill which is always harder than running outside, plus I ran without any sugars in me to keep me going. (This new diet is going to make my training very interesting.)

Anyway, after my run all seemed fine until I walked into the living room, then my legs became jello and I almost fell on the floor. My legs had no strength to carry me. It was the weirdest feeling to have my mind telling me to walk to the couch and my legs not letting me. All I could do was half stand while my legs wobbled until I crawled to the couch. Needless to saw, I didn’t get a shower last night. I laid on the couch for a couple hours and then went  to bed.

I have never “hit the wall” or “bonked” before so this was a first for me. Kinda cool 🙂

Have you ever “hit the wall” or “bonked” before? How many miles did you run to get to that point?

Tuesday: 4 miles

Wednesday: Strength

Thursday: 3 miles and strength

Friday: rest

Saturday: 6 miles

Sunday: rest

Monday: depressed and didn’t exercise

Tuesday: 5 miles

Wednesday: Strength

Thursday: 3 miles

Friday: Strength

Saturday: 8 miles

Total miles for the two weeks: 29 miles